Transition into Motherhood
I should probably wait to write this so I don’t get anymore “just you wait” comments but I feel that I am ready to talk about my transition into motherhood.
During my pregnancy one of the most common comments I got from people was “just you wait”. When asked how I felt, I would respond “great” and I think this may have annoyed some people because it was always followed by “just you wait until the third trimester” , “just you wait till your shoes won’t fit” or “just you wait until you’re so uncomfortable you cannot sleep”. I’m not lying when I say I did feel great. I was very lucky because I actually loved being pregnant (aside from the first trimester where I was very sick). When asked how I felt about transitioning into motherhood I would again respond “great” and it was usually followed with “just wait until you don’t get any sleep” or “say goodbye to your date nights with your husband” and my oh so favourite “just you wait… your life is about to change”.
I remember being 9 months pregnant standing inside of an ice castle complaining about all the negativity when a smart man said to me “ignore them and enjoy every single minute of it because it is going to be the best thing that has ever happened to you”. He was right.
I love motherhood. I love the lack of sleep, I love being peed on, pooped on, spit up on, scratched and sneezed on. I love it all and I’m being serious. Maybe it’s because I knew what to expect, I knew what it would be like to love and care for a child, and I was prepared for it. What I wasn’t prepared for was, loving something so little so much. I never knew a love like this existed.
Yes my life has changed (for the better). My showers have gotten quicker, my clothes sit in the hamper longer, and my time outside has shortened. Another common comment I received while pregnant was “you won’t have time” for maple syrup, chickens, cooking or my regular activities. Somehow we found the time and we made our maple syrup, we take care of our chickens and I’ve managed to get out kayaking a few times.
I’ve kayaked the river and creek by us enough times, I’ve climbed the routes around us lots and I’ve hiked all the trails. Those rivers, creeks, rock and trails will always be there, this year, next year, and the year after. My little girl will only be this small now. She will grow this year, next year and the year after and I want to be there for it all. She’s better than any river, any mountain, any sunrise and any sunset. And it won’t be long from now where I will be taking her to do all those activities that I love and I will be looking back at these newborn moments wondering ‘where did the time go’.